My month has been amazing. Productive, balanced, Magical really…I am so grateful.
So here I sit with my starbucks coffee, a handful of yogurt raisins and my journal to help me satisfy my unsettled mind.
Yoga was a must today. Ground and extend, Center and Grow, Get out of the mind and into the body, Process and eliminate the nonsense. It has been an amazing month.
I ask myself, “What is my problem?” Maybe it is “To good to be True” says the Voice. I conteract that thought quickly with the affirmation- “I have showed up consistently and the efforts are paying off.” Be Happy.
The Voice is loud and annoying. The cycle of self-doubt-a very familiar voice.
Today is different, a shift has occurred. The self nourishing voice is speaking a little stronger. I am recognizing the Ebb and Flow of the Process of Creation. The question remains, “How can I stay in the Flow?” I am worried that the waterfall is around the corner and soon I will be at the bottom. What I have come to realize is the Ebb is the time for rest. The time to rejuvenate. The time to paint, have fun and create. The Ebb/Flow is the natural rhythm of my work. In Art and in life.
I recognize I need the whole cycle. It is not about being unrealistic and happy all the time. It is about the abilitly to recognize where I am in the cycle. When the Ebb occurs, can I put my anxieties into action and show up to what is NOW. My life. The good, the bad, the happy, the sad. I will admit the Ebb is not as easy to take as the Flow, but I am so grateful for the ability to FEEL. I am aware that the Ebb is temporary and necessary for collecting my energy for the next flow to be even Bigger, Higher, Faster, full of Abundance and Creativity.
Bet the next waterfall will be Beautiful and I will be standing at the base looking up FEELING JOYFUL, with a smile on my face.