Without fear and illness, I could never have accomplished all I have.~Edvard Munch
Question: What keeps me from creating?
Answer: The Goblins. They are the thoughts that run around and around in my mind causing all kinds of FEAR and DRAMA.
I recognize the demons of anxiety that scream all my faults at me LOUD and CLEAR!
They are not the truth of who I am. This I know for sure.
They just yell really loud… Like annoying music… it grates on your nerves.
The Goblins lure you to play with them. They are masters at persuasion.
I can choose to participate or sit on the sidelines and watch the show.
It is similar to watching a painfully bad movie…worse because it is harder to turn off the big screen in my mind…it is even harder to detach from the reactive emotions that raise my blood pressure and make me short of breath.
The Goblins and I are closely related. We know each other well.
On good days. I choose not to play. On a bad day, the game is harder to say NO to.
The pressure takes its toll- like any good pressure cooker – this can result in the top blowing off at some poor passer by or worse yet someone you love.
If you can catch it early, just as it starts to boil, you can make a change.
CHANGE YOUR STATE.
Play better music or cool down in an Epson salt bath (throw in some Lavender for extra spice)
Make a better choice.
Choose to stay out of the fire. I prefer to sit on the sidelines and roast marshmallows.
This takes lots of patience.
It is not easy. The Goblins are very quick and efficient.
Invite them in. Get to know them intimately.
Tell them to have a rest and then turn up the good music and go CREATE!
PS/ sharing one of my favorite poems http://www.gratefulness.org/poetry/guest_house.htm